Holding Nothing Back

If there's one thing I've learned these past 5 months it's that the road to forgiveness is long and difficult. We become wounded and instead of running to God and laying our burdens at the foot of the cross we become embittered and angry. Our hearts become hard and we lose the ability to let God work in our hearts and lives. We seek revenge and we build walls around ourselves - further wounding relationships. I am a witness to this. I have allowed myself to hold onto the wounds from the past and it has only caused me hurt and anger.

Shortly after being freed from my fear of rejection I was forced to face a lot of things from my past, some of them I remembered quite well and others I had forgotten - either from purely forgetting or from forcing my mind to forget. While I was recollecting my past God opened my eyes to see His hand at work. All the hurt, all the pain, all the deep wounds were not failures in my life, in fact God had a plan in all of this. From the beginning God knew my relationship with Him and He knew that He could do something wonderful amidst all the pain. And He has - He has healed me completely from all the hurt, and wounds from my past and the chains of fear no longer keep me bound.

This freedom I have in my life has given me a drive to move forward full speed. I will not hold back any more from the plans that God has for my life. The peace and the love that I am experiencing is so great that I can't help but proclaim "Jesus is Lord!" to the whole world. One step after the other, holding fastly to God's hand, trusting Him completely for my present and future, and setting my sights ahead to the more abundant life that God has for me. I will run the race wholeheartedly and when a battle is at hand I will not step back in fear but I will place my warrior band (as a wise woman told me this week)on my head, take up my sword and charge forward. When the Spirit comes over me I will dance for Jesus. At every opportunity I will take a chance to show God's love (something that I'm really working on - I'll be honest), and I will learn who God is more and more each day.

The chains are gone and I will move forward, holding nothing back...

Blessings!!