When the World Spins out of Control

Now I'm sure we have all been at that place where the world is spinning. Not the literal the world is spinning because it's always doing that, but your own personal world has been tossed in the air. And there's so little resistance to get it to stop spinning that you have no idea which way it will land when it hits rock bottom. But have you ever been in a place where your own personal world is spinning and all you want to do is just spread out your arms wide and embrace whatever comes next? Embrace it with delight, joy, and trust because you know you are so loved that you actually want to hug yourself? Now that would be something.

Actually, that's a little like what my life has been like this past month. My life has been hijacked by joy, my life and who I am have been overwhelmed and overtaken by God's love. I have lost so much control of my life that I can't help but fall into Jesus' arms out of pure delight. Next thing I know my life is being nudged in a different direction, as if I am a ship and the winds turned course and all I can do is let the controls go. I guess you can say it's a bit like being swept off my feet. I'm being steered closer and closer to God's holiness, His presence and all I have to do is just dwell, just delight in knowing God's unconditional love. Delight in knowing my sins are forgiven and I have been given a new life, a new name. No longer an orphan, no longer a slave. But a child - cherished and loved by the Father.

And when the seas get rough, and the storms and winds blow. And I think this ship may sink I know who really is in control. And so I just fall into His arms and delight in His presence. Sometimes that requires me to let go of listening to my emotions and listening to what I know. To depend on who Jesus is and who he has shown himself to be to me. To trust in God's character and meditate on His goodness and the things He has done in my life. To believe in who other people are not how my emotions interpret the interactions and situations around me.

I have been overwhelmed with God's goodness. I have been swept off my feet. And I keep being in awe at all the ways God has been working in my heart. All the people he has led me to interact with, all the beautiful moments where God's beauty radiated into my life. I still find myself most days so in love, so loved, that I can't help but hug myself. I can't help but hug other people. I can't help but laugh and dance. Two years ago this December if you had told me I would want to hug myself so fiercely I would have laughed at the appalling thought. That December I put a "sword in the river" and said "God you need to teach me to love myself because I just can't". Now look at what the Lord has done.

I find myself in this place where my world spins out of my control, of other people's control, and directly into God's control. And all I have to do is fall back into His arms, cherish Him cradling me, holding me, and delight in His presence and watch the Lord's goodness and glory manifest in my life. All I have to do is worship, seek moments to just dwell in His presence, and my life changes. Yep, I've been hijacked by joy and it is absolutely the most incredible thing I could ever experience in this world!!!