His Grace is Sufficient

After last week's confession followed by an incredible weekend of having my first REAL taste of joy I had a difficult day yesterday. I knew something like this was coming. I knew I would be asked to delve deeper into my sin, face it head on, in all it's ugly and horrendous detail, and try to find God's truth in the midst of it. To face the weight of my shame and how much damage it has done to me and my relationships. And how painful it's been to God. And yet, here's God saying "Eliana, turn and face me. Let Me embrace you. Let Me love you."

"We are all infected and impure with sin. When we display our righteous deeds, they are nothing but filthy rags. Like autumn leaves, we wither and fall, and our sins sweep us away like the wind." Isaiah 64:6


How could God want to love me when I've actively chosen to participate in something so ugly? How could God still choose to say "You're mine!" I am wholly unworthy. And yet when I look at the Cross I see His grace; that His love and the blood of Christ is more than sufficient to cover and redeem me from my sin. That He paid the price...a price that I know in full value now. Satan wants me to believe that my sin is too great, that the effects are too permanent, that I am too broken...that God's grace and the blood Jesus shed on the Cross is not enough. But when I look back over all the years I have been trapped in this sin I see God relentlessly pursuing me, fighting for me, leading me to this place I am in. God has done so much to show me His great love in all of this.

He even went so far as to impress on my parents' hearts before I was born to give me a middle name that means exactly what I am now currently fighting to get. It's my identity and my testimony. And it's a gift that God is working tirelessly to build up and establish in my own life.

How could His grace, how could the cost of His blood not be enough if God has shown me that He has worked and paid so much to get me free of my sin? To claim that it's not enough would be to claim Satan is equal if not greater to God and disqualify the truth of the Gospel that God has no equal (and that includes equal and opposite comparisons). See Isaiah 40 :)

And the amazing thing is that because of the blood of Jesus I am now made clean and adopted into God's family - heir of God and co-heir with Christ (Rom. 8:17)!! My sins now forgotten, my shame now erased. I am a new creation; pleasing and beautiful in God's sight...

God makes all things beautiful in its time. And He has set eternity in the hearts of man, yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11